I feel

You know. feelings can slap you when you least expect it. The good thing is, sometimes, its a good feeling that you get and it can be quite surprising when you do feel it.

Anyone who knows me, knows what I am going through, chapter by chapter..so yeah, feeling something good, is...a breakthrough.

I met someone...now I don't know if I will ever see this guy again, but I met him sitting on a riverside cafe, facing the mekong here in Vientiane. He spoke to me, though I did see him sitting there anyway as I was looking for a familiar face (in a country I know noone..smart girl).. and then he said he was going to go check out this club and if I wanted to join him..so yeah, I said yeah..total stranger and all, but you know, I can take care of myself to some extent..

but the tagline is, we had dinner, we talked a lot, we played pool (and believe it or not he beat me! had beers and walked around and went dancing..and that was it. A quick goodbye, i tried to shake his hand but he actually went in for the hug, which was cute and surprising...like familiar and friendly, like it was normal.

And in one quick move, my passion to make friends and care and hope and all those things that go with love and respect and trust ..well..it came back to life.

Who would have ever guessed that that is all it took.

Will we meet again? It doesn't matter...It's more the revival of the feeling that I thought was lost, or buried deep in there somewhere that has me excited :)