Pregnancy 101

I never imagined I would reach the age to actually be pregnant. Actually be old enough to consider myself a potentially good but cool mother..but here I am now, 4 months pregnant, and finally enjoying it.

First of all, nothing and I mean NOTHING prepares you for the first trimester. Maybe I am not the norm, but for those who plan to get pregnant, be prepared NOT to be the norm. I was lucky enough not to get morning sickness, but I was so not prepared for mood swings. Okay, it wasn't even swinging, it was just mood, dark, somber, NOT happy and surely NOT shiny! More like paranoid schizophrenic in hyper sensitive jealous insecure mode!

And I think back to all the movies and crap that glorify pregnancy..hey don't get me wrong, I want to be pregs..I want to experience it in full, all the ups and the downs, but it would have been nice if someone was actually blunt enough to say 'you are going to turn into a woman you wouldn't marry yourself, be kind and tell your husband to go hang out with his friends until you snap out of it'..that would have been nice.

So..4 months, 4 kilos more than when i started..hoping to not hit cow proportions. I have porn boobs, like it actually looks like I have had implants put in..sheesh.

And overall, it really is an inexplicably great experience..til the next entry..

p.s. dad's cancer markers are down, though he couldn't do chemo today as his rbc's were low..but overall, much much better..Here's praying for 2 more years of time with daddy.