Compassionate anxiety

I don't know if this is real, this compassionate anxiety, but maybe its like telekenesis in some ways, as one person can channel their anxiety to another, even from miles away.

I mean, I know how anxiety feels:
Feel dizzy-- CHECK
Nausea-- CHECK
Irrational thoughts of doom-- CHECK CHECK CHECK.

I have to say, during the time of my sister's illness I did not feel anxious. I felt responsible. I had to take the pole position and turn my emotion switch off. I had trouble turning it back on..but that is a different story altogether.

I DID feel anxious in the first stages of falling in love last 2007. Most likely because I was just coming from an emotional black hole and then shoved into a rainbow of feelings..its like alcohol or lsd for the first time..Even just the thought of Pem would make me feel like throwing up. I was constantly in a cold sweat and had thought of our potential relationship and its imminent failure in 2,328 ways. I don't believe that this is what one has to go through to know love in its truest sense..I just think it was just the time in my life.

But NOW, this is totally different.

I have a friend who is troubled. And this friend has found a way to channel compassionate anxiety my way..The irrational thoughts, the nausea, the dizzy spells..all CHECK! Sheesh..

But, honestly, I don't mind. If I can be an exit point of the stress, then fine..but I did tell my friend that they should tell me when they ARE anxious, so I can anticipate the jolt of emotion and NOT imagine that my life is on the edge and that the issues are mine.

Being a good friend means that sometimes, you need to take the shots.